A Love Letter to Me

  • posted by Marci Anderson Evans
  • Saturday, February 14, 2015

Happy Valentine's Day! I love having any excuse for celebrating. And Valentine's Day, which may be a reminder to some of you of your single status, is really all about love. And the MOST important love you can have is love for yourself. While it may sound cheezy, why not honor today by writing yourself a note of love. 

Or perhaps better yet, get involved with the Dear She campaign. I just learned about this yesterday and was so excited to pass it along. Here's an excerpt from the Dear She Website:

"Dear She was created for women and girls of all ages to help deal with matters of body image and self confidence. Dear She utilizes the therapeutic qualities of writing as a form of self expression by writing anonymous love letters to the self. You can write us a letter in the share section! Tell us anything you want, anything you want to get off your chest, it’s safe with us. You can also send us a tweet, an image of a drawing, a Facebook message, or anything that helps you work through a struggle that so many women face. These “letters” as we like to call them, will be collected into a book that you can view and purchase here on our site. Collecting the letters together, in whatever format they come in, will help create a sense of community. Readers will be able to experience the stories of women from all different walks of life, with different perspectives on the same topic. This community is brought even closer together by our blog. There you can see what we’re up to here at Dear She, check out Letters of the Week, project updates, and other neat stuff! Dear She is a safe space to express yourself, seek comfort, and love yourself."

If you don't end up writing yourself a note, I hope you'll do something to show yourself a little love today. I plan to take an afternoon nap which is something I love but rarely have time for. What will you be doing get a little love fest going on?

Fat Fashion Part 3 & Marci's Musings

  • posted by Marci Anderson Evans
  • Monday, February 02, 2015

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I’m excited to share with you the final post in my series on larger lady fashion. While the first to posts were quite practical, this one provides you with some excellent points to ponder as well as some handy tips. Her writing is in response to the New York Times Article Plus-Sized Fashion Moves Beyond the Muumuu. Enjoy and feel free to share your own thoughts! 

While reading this article, several things stood out for me, like the usual "ooh, a designer used a plus-size/curvy model!" who turns out to be size 10! But the part I'm still processing is the suggestion that larger women subscribe to clothing rental services (WHAT??) because high-end designers believe that "When you’re taught to look at your body as a work in progress, you’re not going to spend $1,000 on a coat to last forever because you’re not hoping for it to last forever." We've been talking about this for a year! This is precisely what self-acceptance is not. The very thought of women renting clothes, as though their bodies are some sort of extended-stay hotels they don't really live in but are just passing through! I may need to write a letter to the editor about this....

One really good point the article makes is that "there's no Vogue for the plus-sized." This is what troubles me the most about plus-size fashion. There was a gorgeous, short-lived magazine years ago called Mode. Most of the clothes were very expensive (e.g., Marina Rinaldi, Anna Scholz) but beautiful and edgy. And the models were stunning and photographed like high-fashion models, not cheesy catalog posing. It was a revelation, that there could be such a beautiful, high-quality, high-end magazine for plus-size women. Everything about it was fine: the photography, the copy, the paper, the ads. My heart broke when through several editors and then finally went out of print.

Which brings me, I guess, to why it's been so hard to think of plus-size blogs to recommend. Most of them don't inspire me; my style is changing, but it is nothing like what most of the bloggers like, especially the younger ones. A lot of it looks cheap and disposable. The best two I've found are Stephanie Zwicky's Blog and And I Get Dressed, but what I really love are the French "street style" blogs and posts I find on google or Pinterest. I've always gone for "investment" clothes--buying a few well-made, classic versatile pieces I can mix or match and wear for years (as in decades, sometimes, like my winter coat and a few sweaters). My best style revelation happened in the mid-1990s when I lived in London and needed an outfit to wear as my friend's "best ma'am." I went to Liberty and met an amazing sales assistant named Nora (or Norma). We hit it off because she had family in NY and she was of West Indian descent. She introduced me to designers like Issey Miyake and Shirin Guild, whose clothes were sculptural and inventive--they suited me perfectly and made me feel beautiful and chic. Liberty's women's department isn't large but it's amazingly curated--clothes as works of art, dressing as adornment and self-expression, not trendy and also not particularly youthful (I was always the youngest and poorest woman there). I couldn't and wouldn't wear most of the clothes, but I learned a lot just spending time looking around and studying the clothes and how they were put together on the manequins--and also studying the other shoppers' style and confidence.

The Nordstrom website has a huge, excellent plus-size section with very good sales (over the holidays I cleaned up on some Eileen Fisher sweaters). Ebay is also really good. I can't afford paying retail for Issey Miyake, but a lot of his stuff is available practically new from Japanese sellers. His Pleats Please line is amazing--stretchy, comfortable, and colorful (though there are plenty of neutrals, too).

One issue that I've been thinking about over the past week or so is internalized self-hatred--and whether that's part of my not liking most of the plus-size blogs. I'll look at them and think, oh god, do I look like THAT? And I hate that in me.... Much to discuss, I guess....

I hope this series has each of you thinking about your own relationship to your bodies- how you treat them, how you invest in them, and how they do or do not reflect your own feelings of worthiness. I hope this evolves into a meaningful thought experiment for each of you. Clothing and fashion is incredibly personal. For some it matters very little. And for others, it is a representation of how you feel about yourself. At the end of the day, each of you are deserving of self-love. And how you choose to make the manifest in your life is a journey I how you will embark on thoughtfully.

Fat Fashion: Part 2

  • posted by Marci Anderson Evans
  • Tuesday, January 27, 2015

Wowee- I've been getting a lot of positive feedback about this fat fashion series. Thanks everyone! But most of all, big thank you to the wisdom of the women who shared their thoughts and experiences. So without further ado, here is more fashion advice for larger ladies. Enjoy! And if you missed the first post, be sure to check it out.

**I'm telling you- there are tips in here for women of all shapes and sizes.

One of the things I feel are the most lacking in fat fashion is the ability to go into a store and try things on. Women's fat bodies come in SO many different shapes, that the idea that you can measure parts of your body and know what looks good on you is ludicrous. BUT unfortunately, all the best fashions are available online (in my opinion anyway). So I divided my faves into online shops, and places you go and try stuff on!


ASOS Curve - This is the most fashion forward plus size clothes I've ever seen. They have some weird, fun pieces. A lot of short skirts (which aren't my favorite as I'm in my 30s) but short skirts are cured by good leggings in my opinion! 

EShakti - This is an India-based company that keeps getting better over the years. They sell mostly vintage styles for affordable prices in sizes 0-32. They best part is that for $8 extra you can have a garment made to your size specifications. You can also add sleeves or length (or get rid of sleeves or length) on many of their dresses. The dresses are affordable, but their return process costs money and time, so I don't order from there very often. That being said, the dresses/skirts that I have that I've kept, I've LOVED.

SimplyBe - A British website with a HUGE variety of really fun styles. It's like the anti-Roamans. Super fashion forward, and very few oversized drapey shirts.

City Chic - I've never bought anything from City Chic, but I LOVE looking at their website. Such cool, cute clothes. 

ModCloth - For a while their alleged plus size section was SO SAD, but it's really improved! Make sure to read all the reviews/sizing descriptions as some of their clothes are oddly sized.

We Love Colors - For basic colored tights! They are stretchy, $15, and last forever. 

In store:

Dress Barn - The name is terrible, but their plus size section is AMAZING. I have never enjoyed shopping in a store as much I have in dress barn over the past few years. They have such a wide variety of dresses and skirts, and they have some crazy good sales. I've been underwhelmed with their Fall collection, but consistently LOVE their summer dresses! SO many bright colors, and varying shapes!

Macy's - It's a crap shoot at times, but I've gotten some great pieces from Macy's sales rack. AND unlike many other stores they haven't cut down on their plus size section. Also, I LOVE the American Rag brand as I love Hipster chic looks. :)

Lord and Taylor - It's a step above Macy's. Their dresses can be expensive if full price, but if you are willing to buy out of season, you can get some crazy good deals (particularly on holiday weekends). I and my friends have gotten so many amazing dresses there over the years.

Also, here's my tips (which I learned from many a fat fashion blogger): 

  • Try everything on, even shapes or styles you might not normally try. My best friend is always getting me to try on things I would never picked out, and it's led to a couple of really cool pieces. 
  • That being said, have wardrobe basics! As a almost primary skirt/dress wearer, a denim skirt (a pencil and a full skirt), black pants, basic cardigans in varying lengths (from cropped to long), and black/grey/navy tights are my most important pieces. If wearing tights leads to any chub rub (which I find happens if I'm doing too much walking in my tights) I pair them with the nylon shorties I wear under my dresses in the summer. Also, since they are high-waisted they keep my tummy warm in the winter too!! :) 
  • In that vein you can get GREAT wardrobe basics from the plus size staples (Lane Bryant, Torrid, Roaman's, Jessica London etc.) I find those stores aren't great for interesting pieces, but I just bought some jeans from LB which are SUPER comfy and cute, and I LOVE the comfort waistbands!!! 
  • Get a bra that fits. Most women are wearing a bra that is too big in the band and too small in the cup. Although I hate Nordstrom for their in-store clothes selection, get fitted for a bra there. Also, once you know your size, you can get bras from the onlines (herroom.com is my favorite big boobie website). I promise your clothes will all feel brand new! 
  • Wear things that aren't "flattering" just because you like them. I don't consider my wardrobe to be a political statement, but just by nature of my body, it is! This means horizontal stripes, leggings as pants, SKINNY PANTS, and crop tops. You can wear anything you want! F*ck Flattering!!
  • Subscribe to many a plus size fashion blog. Although my cheapness keeps me from fully imitating my favorite fashion blogger (Chastity Garner), seeing her wear different styles, seeing her look so sexy, or flirty or elegant, all while flaunting her big body--it makes me feel bolder about my own body, and gives me ideas about what I want to wear.

Fat Fashion: A 3-Part Blog Series

  • posted by Marci Anderson Evans
  • Saturday, January 24, 2015

***Disclaimer: This post is not just for fat women. This post is for everyone because we all need to learn to check our weight bias at the door and evaluate our own internalized stigma about size. I hope this 3-part blog series will increase your capacity for compassion around weight.

A couple of months ago I had a really fascinating conversation about fashion with a client of mine. She is someone who lives in a larger body. And she has really helped me understand some of the major barriers to shopping and feeling fashionable as a fat woman.

My eyes filled with tears when she described how she has felt about clothes shopping, style, and even a little pampering.

“I never felt deserving a manicure let alone stylish clothes. I was fat and should be ashamed and try to hide as much as possible. How dare I think it ok to draw attention to myself or treat my fat body with kindness? I did not believe I deserved it and had no place making myself more noticeable than I already was." 

And then there were the logistical issues. Despite how frequently we hear about the growing rates of obesity, obese people have pretty crappy options for buying cute clothes. Forget going to the mall. Sure there’s Lane Bryant, the token fat lady store. But that is about it. And it can be tough buying clothes online since sizing is incredibly inconsistent and cute clothes for bigger bodies are tough to find. Many larger women fantasize about what it would be like to walk into a mall and have so many options to choose from- multiple stores, not just one.

I live in a culturally acceptable thin body, this education from clients and friends feels really important to me. I have not experienced what so many of my clients (and many of you) have experienced. I wanted to learn and better understand their struggle. I believe so strongly in women (in particular) dressing in ways that feel good. And I think it totally sucks that it is so hard for so many woman to do so due to their size.

So I decided to ask some advice from 3 lovely larger ladies. I asked them to write about what they think about fat fashion and any tips they could share with my readers. I will be presenting their responses in 3 different blog posts so stay tuned! 

My first Fat Fashion Consultant provided the following tips:

1. Check out this blog post: The Top 20 Breakout Plus Size Style Bloggers of 2014

2. I really am enjoying Gwynnie Bee for dress rentals.

3. High recommendations for Re/Dress, one of my favorite plus size shops:.

4. I'm not usually one for thrift stores, but I have a lot of friends who have good luck with thrifting. Their usual tip is that you should try things on regardless of a sizing label. Clothes sizing is totally bizarre and L means something different for each brand. Also sometimes a curvy girl will rock a tight fitting piece that was originally marketed to be loose on a smaller body.

Stay tuned for tips and thoughts from two more fat fashionistas!

Guest Blog: 4 Tips for Enjoying the Holidays in Recovery

  • posted by Marci Anderson Evans
  • Friday, December 19, 2014

Image by Kirsten Skiles

By Emma Balek

Many people look forward to the holiday season, but for people struggling with eating disorders or going through recovery, this season can cause a lot of anxiety and stress.  Here are some tips for not letting your eating disorder get in the way of enjoying the holidays.

1. Don’t focus on the food

Remember that holidays are about spending time with your loved ones and appreciating what you have; food is a very small part of it. This holiday season, focus on the relationships with others that make holidays so special.  When you stop thinking about food and focus on the positive things in your life and what you are thankful for, you may notice that the holidays make you feel a lot less anxious.

2. If you’re craving something sweet, allow yourself to have it

Sometimes, when we don’t give into cravings, we end up thinking about them even more. If you have a craving that you can’t stop thinking about, tell yourself that you’re going to allow yourself to have this treat and enjoy it, then do your best to stop thinking about it. Remember that you should never feel guilty or ashamed about eating. That treat that you had has absolutely nothing to do with your worth as a person.

3. Don’t skip meals in anticipation of one big meal or a lot of sweet treats

Often times during the holidays, people will skip a meal or two because they know they are going to eat a bigger meal later. This often backfires. When you don’t respect your hunger cues, you’re likely to feel even more guilt when the big meal comes around. As much as possible, stick to your meal plan (and listen to your hunger cues) throughout the day. You may even feel better if you eat a small snack before a holiday dinner or party.

4. Reach out to your support network

If you have someone close to you who you trust and who will support you, reach out to them. Now is the best time to ask for support from those helping you through recovery (such as a dietitian or psychologist). Asking for support can feel vulnerable, but through practice, this act will help you to grow stronger in your recovery.

Most importantly, always remind yourself that you are strong, and you absolutely have the ability to enjoy the holiday season and not let your eating disorder get in the way.  You are worth so much more than you realize, and what you eat during the holiday season has absolutely nothing to do with that.

--Meet Emma: 

 Emma Balek is a dietetics student at Boston University and a certified fitness instructor.  Her personal struggles with anorexia nervosa, and the media’s false information about health is what inspired her to study nutrition.  She intends to pursue a career in eating disorder recovery. If there is one thing she wants people to know, it is that you should never lose hope that a full recovery is possible.